6 years ago, during Christmas season, I am alone. Being slow in opening up to people, and being drifted apart from my primary school friends, I spend my Christmas at home.

6 years later, during Christmas season again,I feel lonely. I guess it is time for me to stay at home again even though I become more sociable over the years.

Ever since I put my life-changing plan into actions, things really have changed. I left my gang hoping for the better. Sound pretty much like Sasuke. I went to join a greener pasture I reckon. Don't feel comfortable initially, but I hold on because I know it is all for my own good. However, I am getting lonely. I tasted the same feeling before, so I don't want to taste it again.

I tried hard to adapt. Though there is improvement, but it is not enough. I tried to contact the old gang again, but luckily they didn't reply. Why luckily? Because I managed to move forward with much struggles, I don't want to lose it and jump back into the comfort zone. As a result, I break that bond, gradually.

At the same time, I am losing that drive, that motivation I rely on to move. Jaded. I have allow the history to repeat itself. What a failure I am. How I wish there is a person who convince me that everything is alright and me myself is willing to be convinced.

I'm losing it.