I was chatting with Ed over MSN on random stuff and he talks about the latest AFC Cohesion Day, filling me up with some details. The conversation went on and he mentioned Sha.

Of course, he would have met Sha, who is now posted back to AFC for his rest of his NS term, and he is loving it. (McDonald's attitude)

Ed commented on how Sha seems unwilling to connect with the 91st.

However, it's a different story I heard from Sha, on how the 91st bonds with their own FCC group, and how weird it is to meet fellow coursemates again when the last cohesion day should be the last.

I understand Ed's eagerness to connect with a "long-lost" friend. I also understand Sha's feeling towards meeting his fellow comrades. Once again, I am on the fence trying to make sense of the whole situation from different perspectives.

Surely, I would like to meet "long-lost" friends again, catching up face-to-face rather than relying on virtual networking. Concurrently, the "course failure" fact flash into the mind and remind myself why and what am I to meet them?

After hearding numerous "Get over it" comments, I really appreciate it but it can't be helped to have such mindset. It's undeniable that the invisible wall had already been formed and it is not going to come down so easy like Berlin Wall. (P.S. Tearing down Berlin Wall is in fact a difficult task)

It seems that it's our (course failure) "fault" for having this mindset. But, is it really our "fault"?

When we "overcome" the wall on some occasions, we find the fellow comrades with their new camps. Well, you wanted some interactions and here I am ready yet you are nowhere to be seen.

Or, we are on different frequency now and the conversation is hardly sustainable, then you walk away thinking why can't we seems to "click" anymore. Then, you conclude that it's us who don't want to "click".

Sometimes,having experienced either unintentional offensive conversation or pure malicious talks, it is not that we don't want to mix around. Once bitten, twice shy. We need no ego-buster, thank you very much.

Now, with these mini scenarios taking place simultaneously, it's little wonder why in the same meet-up, there's different camp of thoughts and feelings.

It's not that I am supportive of Sha's perspective but I am in fact in the same zone with him. However, understand that the only constant is Change. We might have changed, but understand that you too, have changed. We do not complain loudly when you are trying to connect, only half-heartedly. Don't deny, we can sense the desperateness. But, we understand.

We are friends, but we are of different league.

If it ain’t broken (perhaps, yet), don’t fix it.

If you go around fixing things that aren’t broken (perhaps yet), you’re going to break things.