What is your definition of "Friend"?

What is your definition of "Best Friend"?

Few weeks back, I concluded that I have no best friend(s) despite living close to 20 years. People started bombarding me with questions.

From my observation, most likely I am considered as somewhere near the "Best Friend" stage. I regret I have disappoint them.

I don't feel close to any of my friends. I don't feel safe to open up to them in fear of the worst possible scenario.

I've experience how brittle a friendship can be. Thus, my trust and hope have gone.

The rational why I am typing this post is to tell my friends that I am not worthy to be considered as "Best Friend" stage. The problem lies with me and not them.

I do feel gulity when I see their disappointed faces and hear their disheartened voices.

Reality is cruel. I'm too serious.

However, Everyone needs a friend to hold.

Labels: Reflections