76 days left to enlistment and I don't feel excited.

I have the mentality that I will be wasting 2 years of my remaining lifespan learning how to defend a dot that it declares that she does not owe me anything. Come to think, do I owe her anything?

Despite the negative mentality, I do see some silver lining. NS can act as a pause in life, allowing me to look back and see how have I ruin my life for the past 20 years, and put the destruction on a temporary hold.

For months, I am been thinking about my future and being imaginative doesn't help. It's like picking a dish from the menu which it has all the food that you wish to try, while you only have enough money for one.

4 days left to my last day in CPG. Callie brought up to CY and I that she might need to extend our stay. However, no news from her yet.

I am easy with extending or not. If CPG extend the contract, I need not go through that trouble to find another job. If CPG decided not to extend, I can go back to my jobless lifestyle, swimming frequently with my gang and do some reading on paper and on net, while keeping a lookout for any temporary part-time job.

5 days left to Ade flying off to Australia for studies. I organised a meet-up session tomorrow and I guess there's a lot of things to catch up with my clique. Can't wait to see them all.