I was feeling a little faint. The boxes seem to be never ending.

Well, I was involved in the company pre-renovation preparation just a few hours ago. I am hired as a temporary packer, yet I have not been doing what I should do as listed in my job scope until just now.

Apparently, the department I am allocated to will be revamped over the weekends. The staffs are forced to move their butt to get out of my way while I am forced to move their belongings. It's not really me, I have to include CY since he was the one who pulled me in into this job.

What I have done from Tuesday, my first day, till just now, are packing files, labelling boxes, doing filing summary, shifting, arranging and etc. I guess I am more or less trained to do "more hardcore" administrative work.

Brief description about my new job. Starts at 8.30am until 6pm everyday, except on Friday which ends half an hour early. Working place is at Novena Square, Velocity, Tower B and I am paid S$7.50 per hour. I am counting my blessings since it's a jump of S$1.50 per hour from my previous job at Luxasia. However, I will remain as a poor chap even after I got my paycheck.

Like last time, I planned how to allocated my salary so I won't overspend. To my horror, I am actually left with slightly more than S$250 to spend until my next payday! Furthermore, CY is planning to go on cruise. That is just great!

I want to earn as much money as I can before I get enlisted. Also, I am very much not in the mood for holidays. Besides, my budget didn't spare out any extra cash for cruise. You are right, S$250 is whatever that's left after deducting all my financial liabilities and it did not include cruise trip! I wonder if CY is doing well since he want to go on cruise and take up driving lessons.

Talk about driving, I just watched Xiaxue's latest video, featuring her driving lesson experience. I wanted to comment her being stupid, but for a guy who have not take up any driving at all. Perhaps she has the calibre to be the one laughing at me. For me, I remain passionless about driving.

I don't understand what's so great about driving? It's not like I will die if I can't drive. And I simply can't believe the guys in my clique actually knows almost all the brands of cars that are driving on the road. Especially Jac, he actually knows the model number. Should I say that he has good memory or I am just clueless about cars?

Oh well, regarding the persisting issue about my future path. I begin to know what I want already. Shall reveal it after I have settled my thoughts.

Future lies in your own hands or in the Upper Almighty? Regardless what might be the answer, I want to live happily, but it seems that I am heading for a life of meaning.

"You see, I think there comes a time when a man has to ask himself whether he wants a life of happiness or a life of meaning."

"I'd like to have both."

"It can't be done. Two very different paths. I mean, to be truly happy a man must live absolutely in the present, and with no thought of what's gone before, and no thought of what lies ahead. But a life of meaning, a man is condemned to wallow in the past, and obsess about the future."

- Linderman, Nathan (Parasite), Heroes Season 1