I am jealous of my peers.

The events they experienced. The bonds they forged. The life they led. It's all missing in my life currently.

I am jealous, very very jealous.

Am I not contented with my life? Am I not appreciating the people around me?

Actually, I don't think so.

I know I am uniquely me.I too been through life-altering events, lesson-learning events and etc.I too have my peers, old acquaint and new friendship. I enjoy simple pleasure at times. Yet I am jealous.

Digging deeper, I realised that it might not all jealousy weighing me down.

I am greedy.

I want to experience what others had experienced. I want to forge more bonds, having common friends. I want every little achievement, or accomplishment that my peers have.

I want everything.

2 out of 7 deadly sins possessed me now.

Will the weight increase, or I can be relieved?

It's heavy.